Last week Wednesday was World MS Day. This day was created to bring to light, worldwide, the life altering illness of Multiple Sclerosis to many who wouldn’t otherwise be the least bit interested. If MS hadn’t hit close to my home, I don’t know if I would have been interested. In December of 2005, my big toe became numb and thus my journey began. I was officially diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in 2007. My diagnosis came within 5 years. I am one of the lucky blessed ones. Many people who live with MS sometimes have a 7-10 year wait on their hands to get diagnosed. MS’s symptoms are so varied, it is not the easiest disease to diagnose. Of the 13 most common symptoms, I struggle with 9 of them and of the 9 less common symptoms, I struggle with 4. I do not have a life like those of my old friends, but I have to remind myself that I’m not them, I’m me. God didn’t make me to have someone else’s life. He made me to have my own.
I do worry at times; especially when I’m going through a horrible flare up. Flare ups limit my mobility and remind me of how much more I am at stake to lose, but Jesus asked – will worrying today add a moment to my life tomorrow? (Matthew 6:27)
No it wont, so each day, and when I’m having a particularly bad day – each moment is an exercise in faith. Sometimes the most difficult thing is remembering that Jesus is with me every step of the way, but that is exactly what is happening, whether or not I remember. When I walk with the Lord, the odds are 100% in my favor… even if I don’t feel that way every moment. God has it all in hand.
Sometimes it is easy to feel hopeless and worthless, living in this “must do” society reinforces that. This discouragement is a tactic of the enemy, but if I read the promises in God’s word, I will come to realize that I’m not worthless or hopeless, in fact, I am priceless. And although I do not have a high powered job and there are days when I can not even stand up straight- that doesn’t mean I cant be kind to you or give you an encouraging word. Sometimes those are the very things that make my day worthwhile!
Many times, my doctors seem to think I don’t understand the scope of my health issues, but they don’t understand the scope of my God. He’s all types of wonderful and amazing. He is the one who takes care of me. (Psalms 121:5 NLT) That knowledge carries me through my very worst days.